The Suicide Solution

The name, "The Suicide Solution", came to me quite some time ago. I don't think I ever thought of it as something that would be what I am creating now. Back then, I honestly thought of it and wished with all my might that there actually WAS a solution. "The truth is, I was suicidal before I even knew what the word meant." After my attempted suicide, 12 years ago, my sister was asking me questions about me being suicidal when I was very young. I had NO idea what she was talking about. She asked me if I remembered my mother taking me to counseling when I was around 10 -12 years old. I, of course remembered that. She went on to tell me that the reason my mom started taking me to counseling was because she had found my little diary and read it. I guess I had written a lot in that special diary about killing myself.  I was shocked, as I have NO memory of this whatsoever. Not even today, in this very moment. NONE . But, alas, I spent many, many seconds, minutes, hou...